Weird

Just tried signing in and it gave me an error message. Ok, so I tried again and it brought me here without a password...hmmm. Whatever. Anyway, had one of those foggy kind of days. I took the day off to run some errands both local and in NYC and somehow I feel I just got off a 6 hour flight.
No energy. Good night.

- Y.

All Smiles...For Now Anyway

Well, another week has come and gone. 4 more paychecks...my countdown. I am feeling very optimistic, however those who call me at work would probably disagree as I am usually in a bad mood when I answer the phone (result of boredom). Some may consider my bad mood as my natural state of being, others well, they just know me. As I mentioned, I'm feeling optimistic, and not only because we have a new president, but I have many things to look forward to. The main one being my termination with Olympus and beginning a new chapter in my life. I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason. Although I may not know it at the time, something I do today may or will have an effect tomorrow (or weeks, months, years later). For instance, last summer I decided to leave the NYU Translation Studies Program: 1. Too expensive 2. Very limited interaction between students and instructor 3. my company had announced lay-offs, which now gave me the opportunity to seek the translation program at Hunter College. Not only is it cheaper, but I have the classroom experience, the opportunity to network, and I will complete the program in May - fingers crossed.

So, what else? Well, despite all the doom and gloom news about the economy and unemployment rates, most of my ex-coworkers have managed to find new jobs...and good jobs, too. I am very hopeful. Also, Dave has found a solution to his College Algebra problem - his dad. This means he will continue pursuing a degree in Physics, not cool off too much and be able to get a grip on his math anxieties, which lowers my anxiety as well.

Anyway, the drama lama will not cease to follow me around since I do come from a crazy Puerto Rican family (that's a whole other blog and a half), but at least I can concentrate and focus on what really matters at this time. I'm sure in a couple of weeks I'll be a nervous wreck and huge stress ball cursing up a storm like a drunken sailor about my translation classes, but for now I will continue to meditate, do yoga, try to eat healthy, crochet and fill myself with the things I love to do and be around the people I love.

Off to the movies I go...hasta la pasta.

- Yeye

Numb Fingers

I have been having chest pains on and off for the past week and a half. Not sure if it's anxiety or if I'm actually suffering from some ailment. To be honest, there has been a lot on mind and I am having a hard time verbalizing what I feel. It's a mixture of things - some good and some bad. I never seem to find the time to practice guitar, read a book, finish a project. Most of my time is spent at work and when I come home it's to make dinner, clean, and maybe watch a little TV with my husband. There are two things that I truly look forward to on the weekends: my yoga class and my guitar lessons. They both provide a moment of clarity - therapy.

I'm making a reservation for Dave and I to attend a Valentine's Day Stretch and Massage Workshop at the yoga studio. Something different, breaking away from the usual dinner at some restaurant where we would spend $100 anyway. This could be interesting and funny. I just want to spend time with my husband that doesn't require sitting in front of a TV or across a table. Today we played "Let It Be" as a duet, Dave on piano and me on guitar. My fingers were sore from my guitar class earlier, but I enjoyed it, numb fingers and all. Plus, it's almost like a supplement to my regular class. He knows how and when to kick my ass.

I know things will fall into place as soon as I get a plan together. Time is available - I just need to organize my schedule. Classes start soon, so I need to take advantage of this mini-vacation. Anyway, this is a start...more work needs to be done. There are still some issues, drama mainly, that need to be dealt with, but not now.

- Yeye

Stuck

Listening to Pandora, Joni Mitchell Station, and loving it.

I'm finding it hard to write for some reason. I've noticed that my chest has been tight for the past couple of days - anxiety. I've been working on organizing my home office and will feel better as soon as my creative space is ready. I'm looking forward into pouring some of these feelings into a project(s). Plus it's the perfect time for it. The holidays are over and a long and boring winter is ahead of us. Time to reconnect with myself emotionally, physically and creatively.

Please be patient...

- Yeye

A Clean Slate

Happy New Year!

1. Find new job
2. Lose 20 lbs
3. Continue yoga practice and meditation
4. Start blog
5. Create, create and create!

Well, I feel better now. Simplicity and peace.

- Yeye